Starting over.

Well, it's a typical Monday here for me. I'm sitting in my office. In front of my computer. Trying to figure out how to attack the day. I just finished breakfast, which today consisted of Eggo waffles and a banana. No more caffiene for me. I've sworn off coffee, and soda. Just decaf tea, juice, and a lot of water.

There's a ton of things flying around in my head because of recent events. A relationship comes to an end. Plans that were made have suddenly flown out the window. A lot of tears, anger, disbelief, sadness, and finally, acceptance.

Just like when anyone you love is taken from you, for whatever reason, there's a period of time where you have to sit down and truly confront your feelings about what happened. It could be a break-up, someone moved, or someone has lost their life.

Someone that I love very much, decided to end our relationship. I completely understand her reasons, and have feel no malice. She helped me in so many different areas of my life. She was supportive, non-judgemental, honest, caring, and all in all, exactly what a girlfriend should be. I am still coping with this sudden change, and have relied heavily on my friends and family for support. Most have been really helpful. One has NOT. But in the end, the fact remains that I am doing the best that I can do to deal with how I'm feeling. Expressing my emotions is something that hasn't been easy for me. However, I'm finding it much easier now. It's making this transition in my life a lot less traumatic for me.

I decided that it would be a good idea to find and get help from a therapist. This is proving to be one of the best choices I've ever made. Progress. REAL progress is being made with me.
Things are taking a positive turn for me.
I'm still the same happy-go-lucky guy that I've always been, and always will be. I'm truly fortunate to have the support system that I do.

To the Gies family, The Torgeson's, The Gamble's, and The Macy's. The friendships that I have developed with you over the past 6 months have all been amazing. I'm so glad that in spite of how things have changed, you are still in my life, and are still being the same friends that you have been. I love you all.

This little blog is going to chronicle my progression from where I am now, to where I want to be. And I'm glad that you're all coming along for the ride!